Even tho I am 28 years old I have always felt way younger because with the exception of work I didnt really have any other responsibilities...I was a bachelor for years....I came and went whenever without ever telling anyone...I did whatever I wanted...I drank constantly...pretty much acted like a teenager and this was the life I was accustomed too that I lived for the past 10 years....in August 2011 I met the most wonderful woman that I had ever met...she is so strong....intelligent...funny....caring and on top of that she loves me....so I married her :-)
we got married on 3-3-2012...So I feel myself starting to change, starting the "growing up" process...and now we are expecting a baby in September...an extremely scary but yet humbling thing...this is the first child for us both...so at least we are nervous/scared together....If any of you ever read my old blog than you know that I have always been afraid to bring a child into this world because of all the hatred that is in the world today....I just hope that I can keep my child safe and to where my child does not know a world full of hatred, torture, malice, killing, jealousy, greed, etc...So now starts the time for me to start fearing for the safety and correct upbringing of my child...that I am going to be good enough and strong enough to be able to raise my child and yet keep shielded from all of the evil in this world....this is a feeling that will never go away....I am always going to be curious and wondering if I am doing the best job that I can....and this to me is the scariest thing that I have yet to face....here's to HOPE!!
Your gona be an amazing father. I know that scares you but you've been through what this world is which gives you the upper hand in protecting your child from it. Don't doubt yourself you will be an amazing father all along
ReplyDeleteThanks Man....I sure hope so
ReplyDeleteCongratulations Bo, you just become a parent. That's part of parenting wanting to protect our kids from the evils of the world, as well as protecting them from doing the same stupid stuff that we did. One thing I'm learning as Travis is turning 13 in June is we can only raise them up in the way we see fit (not the way everyone else sees fit) and hope that they will take that knowledge out into the world with them. But I guess the most important thing I've learned as a parent is we are their leaders and they will follow what we do. But you? You've got this.
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