Chase It.........

If you want happiness than you must carve it yourself....Life is a bitch and will not just give you happiness...if you want happiness than you must carve out the happiness for yourself....if you want to have happy friends than you must find those that are happy and make them a part of your life and leave those unhappy ones behind...if you want to be happy in a career than you must figure out what makes you happy and then chase it with everything you've got until it happens....if you want to have a happy love life than you get out there and you find that one that is going to help you to be happy in all areas of your life....so happiness is possible for everyone but only if you get of your ass and carve happiness out of life for yourself because it wont just do it for you.

Hero.......

Today we are celebrating the birthday of the greatest man that I have ever met.... a man that is selfless, that is constantly putting those that he loves before himself.....that would stop at nothing to take care of those he loves....the man that I am both lucky and proud to be able to call my Dad....if at any point I could become half the man that he is well I think that would be an amazing thing....I love you Dad....Happy Birthday!!

Angel......

I spent the last 2 years of my life in a downward spiral of depression because of an incident that had happened....that is a long time to be going through depression and my thoughts were starting to get the best of me and I was beginning to become overwhelmed by the darkness of the depression....well 4 months ago it seems that God decided that I hate been in that state of mind for long enough and he decided to send me an angel to wipe the tears from my eyes....and even now just 4 months later as I am starting to go through all of the same things that happened to me 2 years ago....I am not afraid to face them now because I know that my angel is by my side and for this I am so great full that I cant even come up with the words to describe it....thank you Lord for sending me my angel to comfort me and to keep the darkness of depression from being able to overwhelm me..........I LOVE YOU!!!

Happiness....

These last 3 months have been amazing for me.... I met a woman that has managed to bring me out of my funk and has made me truely happy.....I am enjoying getting to know her and falling in love with her....I am even starting to think about our future together.....now for anyone that knows me they know that I love to write...that I am obsessed with movies...that just random things everyday that I think of immediately make my mind think of a story line for turning it into a movie.....this past year I have been writing alot, have many many ideas but in the last 3 months I havent written anything at all....my mind has been pre-occupied with my new love interest....but I may someone today that I talked to about it and they encouraged me to try and get back into it and to make it happen....so I am trying to get my mind back to being focused on my writing so that I can make my dreams a reality...wish me luck

Justice.....

Trying to figure out if true justice does indeed exist....but I am not sure that it does because true justice is different in each person's eye....what one person may believe is justice may not even be close to being justice in another's eye.....a year and a half ago one of my mentors from when I was young was murdered in cold blood by a person that was in a position that was also suppose to be my mentor, in a position were he was suppose to receive respect...yet this man deserved none of that.....he took the life of one of the best men I have ever known....it took a year and a half for this man to finally plead guilty to this murder and receiving life in prison with possibility of parole in 25 years.....where as I should be ecstatic hearing this news my mind cant seem to think of the question of is it actually true justice.....does this sentence fit the crime that was committed....as I said before....figuring out if it is indeed true justice is not actually possible because it depends on who you ask....if you ask me....I say it is not enough....if someone kills another in cold blood and they were not defending someone else while doing so than I believe that that person should receive the death penalty....some believe that is too harsh of a punishment.....some believe that even life in prison is too harsh of a punishment for this crime......what do you believe??

10 years.....

Yesterday was the 10th anniversary for one of the most devestating and tragic events in American history....on Tuesday September 11, 2001....A group of cowards (terrorists) decided to hi-jack 4 planes on this day and they forced the pilots (held them at gunpoint), forced 2 of them to fly into the 2 World Trade Center building in New York City, instantly killing hundreds but then after the buildings collapsed killing thousands more....another one forced them to crash into the Pentagon, again killing many and lastly the 4th one crashing into a field killing some. These terrorists were cowards because they did not chose to fight in an honorable way, no they chose to go after and killing thousands of innocent people...people that did not do anything to them, people that were just trying to do their jobs and go about their business. These terrorists decided to take the lives of these innocent people, to take them away from their family and loved ones.....there is no justice or honor in what they did. This world is vastly becoming overwhelmed by hate. I have asked before, why cant LOVE seem to defeat hate and the answer is actually very clear...its not that its not possible for it to, but because there isnt enough people that are trying to heal the world with Love....The LOVERS are far too outnumbered by the haters and until that changes there is going to be no stopping them and nothing but tremendous casualties from here on out...WAKE UP AMERICA!!!!!

Football........

I am stoked that football is upon us again...that they made it through the lockout and we didnt lose any games...lets play some football baby.

Disgusted.....

So the politicians and other supposed "important" people have decided that at the special event marking the 10 year anniversary of the 9/11 attacks...that the only people that there is room for at this anniversary get together are people that hold some sort of superior office, such as politicians and what not.....that the policemen, the firemen, the EMT's, the families of the victims....none of these people are allowed to go because there is supposedly no room. Am I the only one that is disgusted by this?? This is complete bullshit, these politicians did not do jack shit to help the victims of that day...the heroes are the officers, firefighters, EMT's and all of the civilians that risked their lives trying to save as many other's lives as they could and yet these very people, the true heroes of that horrendous day are the very ones that are getting set aside and not getting any recognition for what they did....this country is really starting to make me sick....and to all of you politicians that had something to do with this decision, guess what....KARMA'S A BITCH....and its gonna come for you hardcore, I am glad that I wont be near any of you when it hits.

Starting Over.....

Someone hacked all of my old accounts, so I am starting all over with everything now........So please join me on this journey and find out about this thing called Karma and how it ties into Life.....lets find out if I have good or bad Karma.....