Why....

What am I suppose to tell my child when begins to ask me why.....Why are there grown ups inappropriately touching other children...Why are there kids shooting up schools and killing there classmates...Why are kids having kids....Why are other countries attacking us....Why are kids doing drugs....Why are parents killing their own children...Why are people constantly stealing from others....Why are all of these bad people able to keep getting off and not paying for their criminal activity.....Why are people blowing up other people and buildings....Why are people being murdered just because of their beliefs....Why Cops are even turning into bad guys and doing these types of things.....Why??  How am I suppose to answer these questions when the answers evade me....When I as a parent am not even to comprehend the horrible evil tendencies of this world....how am I ever going to be able to explain to a child why Mom and Dad are so overprotective....how can I explain why people are acting in such evil manners....I wish I could explain it ..Its just the world is crazy.....There aint no pretty way to paint it.....how can I explain why the fuck Love cant seem to defeat Hate....

Don't Judge so Quick.....

We as a society tend to judge people when we first see them....generally without ever even saying a word to them....we judge them on many different things....if they dont look or act a certain way we tend to write them off...we need to cut this crap out...you have no idea what someone that you just met is currently going through or all the shit they may have gone through within their entire lives...they could have gone through so much that you cant even begin to comprehend it....so before you just write them off because they dont seem to have the right style or they dont seem to have the same kind of attitude as you or they just act a bit differently....dont be so quick to judge them....what makes you better than them anyway....many times people go through so much bad shit that it actually makes them better and strong people...so they may even be better people than you....point is you have no idea about their past or even what kind of a person they are...they may be the best person you ever meet...dont be so quick to judge!

A New Fear.....

Even tho I am 28 years old I have always felt way younger because with the exception of work I didnt really have any other responsibilities...I was a bachelor for years....I came and went whenever without ever telling anyone...I did whatever I wanted...I drank constantly...pretty much acted like a teenager and this was the life I was accustomed too that I lived for the past 10 years....in August 2011 I met the most wonderful woman that I had ever met...she is so strong....intelligent...funny....caring and on top of that she loves me....so I married her :-)
we got married on 3-3-2012...So I feel myself starting to change, starting the "growing up" process...and now we are expecting a baby in September...an extremely scary but yet humbling thing...this is the first child for us both...so at least we are nervous/scared together....If any of you ever read my old blog than you know that I have always been afraid to bring a child into this world because of all the hatred that is in the world today....I just hope that I can keep my child safe and to where my child does not know a world full of hatred, torture, malice, killing, jealousy, greed, etc...So now starts the time for me to start fearing for the safety and correct upbringing of my child...that I am going to be good enough and strong enough to be able to raise my child and yet keep shielded from all of the evil in this world....this is a feeling that will never go away....I am always going to be curious and wondering if I am doing the best job that I can....and this to me is the scariest thing that I have yet to face....here's to HOPE!!

Too Much....

If you are wanting to be in a serious relationship and the other person is doing something that you do not approve of what should you do.....do you stay with the person and continue to fight through and try to get through to them to stop...do you give them an ultimatum like if you can stop that for one month than we can be together....what if they cant stop...how long to you stay with them trying to help them....when is it too much....A person cannot be help until they are ready and willing to be helped....you cannot sacrifice who you are or what you believe in....you certainly cant take the risk of this person doing bad things around your family....in my opinion if the person doesnt care enough about you to stop when you ask than it will never work out anyway....that just proves that you are more committed to the relationship than they are....one person cant make a relationship work...it has to be teamwork...both people have to be on the same page and both have to give and receive for it to work....if they are constantly lying or there is no trust than it is never going to work....trust and communication are the key...dont spend your whole life trying to get them to stop what they are doing or to change who they are....you are wasting your time because it wont work and plus it takes away that much time that you could of already found the right one for you that you dont have to try and get them to stop a bad habit or try to get them to change....keep your head up and stay strong.

Chase It.........

If you want happiness than you must carve it yourself....Life is a bitch and will not just give you happiness...if you want happiness than you must carve out the happiness for yourself....if you want to have happy friends than you must find those that are happy and make them a part of your life and leave those unhappy ones behind...if you want to be happy in a career than you must figure out what makes you happy and then chase it with everything you've got until it happens....if you want to have a happy love life than you get out there and you find that one that is going to help you to be happy in all areas of your life....so happiness is possible for everyone but only if you get of your ass and carve happiness out of life for yourself because it wont just do it for you.

Hero.......

Today we are celebrating the birthday of the greatest man that I have ever met.... a man that is selfless, that is constantly putting those that he loves before himself.....that would stop at nothing to take care of those he loves....the man that I am both lucky and proud to be able to call my Dad....if at any point I could become half the man that he is well I think that would be an amazing thing....I love you Dad....Happy Birthday!!

Angel......

I spent the last 2 years of my life in a downward spiral of depression because of an incident that had happened....that is a long time to be going through depression and my thoughts were starting to get the best of me and I was beginning to become overwhelmed by the darkness of the depression....well 4 months ago it seems that God decided that I hate been in that state of mind for long enough and he decided to send me an angel to wipe the tears from my eyes....and even now just 4 months later as I am starting to go through all of the same things that happened to me 2 years ago....I am not afraid to face them now because I know that my angel is by my side and for this I am so great full that I cant even come up with the words to describe it....thank you Lord for sending me my angel to comfort me and to keep the darkness of depression from being able to overwhelm me..........I LOVE YOU!!!